do little spend more ..and i am on my way to my numbness world

dear diary ( seem to have became my special diary )
i don't know what to write today , what can i write

diary replies ( in a hush hush voice)
anything dear , expose me your deepest desire and feeling

i don't even know what i desire or feel , i feel numb

numb like the song ? diary replies

what song , i never heard of any numbness song

numb like the song i am about to create

numb numb numb
i feel numb
to the bottom of my core
numb inside
numb outside
numb everywhere
numb in my heart
numb in my mind
what can i do to stop this numbness
oooo oooo oooo i feel numb
can i put a thumb for numb
can i explain my numbness in word
can i share my numbness
yea i can oooo
by anastactic

dear diary ... your rambling alot today

dear ann , thats becoz u dun have anything better to share with me

oh dear i don't , i am not in the mood of sharing

what can i do to help , i dun get comments often

u know what diary ... i feeling the Christmas mood even if its so long away

dear ann , close ur eyes ,dream of snow around u , feel the warm of fire and a hot chocolate milk ...

yummy i am in dream land now ...bye bye diary :P

creating a path of love

Is my path clear? clear of love ? clear of fear? clear of disappointment?

i can;t help feeling lonely at times
the emptiness filling the void
what should there be in that void?
love? anger? hater? disappointments?
what can i feel to liberate this odd feeling
what can i do to feel free without any worry
what can i do to make my heart feel warm and cozy
to trust people and get disappointed always
or to be a disappointments to others
love comes in many way , it measures in many form ,
is it quality that counts or quantity
i know i am rambling here , but i feel the pain
that can;t escape from this rusty heart

Hello... Good bye .. where is my script ?

Hiya ...

what a hectic day , well for one thing it wasn;t entirely bored.

Had a sushi + junkfood+ sparkling juice+ fruity top cake with whip cream = Junkiez party yesterday nite. It was a party mix with laughter and different combination of food you can say japanese meets american style junk food , with a flavouring from korean Kimchi ? . I would say odd dinner meal but Awsome!

We had the party for our gengs youngest member , well actually both who turn 20, Big gal ady la !!! . Had to much of drinks ( NON ALCOHOL) , and too many memorable laughter .

Came back around 1.30am , and was mad to find out that our plug point wasn;t fix , bummer .I had to dismantle my cable n wire and connect it to another plug point. The room was filled with wires crossing each other path , didn;t even know which wire belong to which port.

Ended up sleeping around 3 am , then woke up today around 9am , when down to hb3 to buy breakfast ... yeah i had nasi lemak ( RM1). Jimat breakfast money i call that. Then after breakfast , was buzy doing my scripting ; homework from theatre, the lecturer actually wanted originality work , meaning script that was based on real life event in campus ... at that time i cudn;t think of any , so i manage to came up with an invented version. Unfortunatley she denied that entry , so now i have to sit and write 2MORE SCRIPTS, one for next week , and this week. It's so hard to write events that happen so many days ago , the conversation that took place , i can;t remmber what who said what , or even what i mention 3 days earlier i am still having problem in remmbering.

Oh yeah more about the Theatre class, fantastic lecture i can say , but strict and serious at time . Fun activities , like actors' exercise method and vocal training

Inhale air with ur diaphragm and exhale it thru your mouth while saying Ae Ee ie Oo Uu ... i guess thats wat it sounded from my mouth. hahaha ...
And don;t forget to project your voice loud but remmember not to shout. Few tips for people who wanna talk loud and clear at any place.

Absolutely Crank up

argggggggggggggggggggggggg!!

why my eyes are so drowsy! ... unable 2 keep myself awake , i slept at 3.30 am , and woke up at 7.30am ... not enough of sleep , but i wasn;t able to sleep. Most probably all those homework, assignment and club minutes to settle , my mind keeps running thru the event of the day , just like a movie where you are able to control by forwarding and rewinding. Wish my life was like the movie "CLICK". A remote control which is able to control my life in a much slower pace. But thats not life , having it cud make me more lazy in return... or make me take things for granted! well thats the lesson i learn from watching that movie , never take things for granted , always let the event flow by on its natural course or path.

Wish i could just unwind myself , and relax ... its just the begining of the semester .2nd week for heaven sake! why so many details need to be focus on. I just hope it doesn;t build up to another unsleepful night.

couldn't even stay awake at class , was far away in dream land i guess.

I like it , Groove it

Groove it baby !

decided 2 take it off ..sorry

To Be Strong or Not to be ?

Strong like the eagle , sharp and quick like one ...

Can anybody imitate such animal? The question can anybody live a life of being strong , sharp , quick , and have a powerful grip on its prey?

the answer unknown , true some ppl may posses such skills , in reality everyone has those abilities hidden deep within themself . How do one bring up those qualities ? in a person who has no willingness to do anything?

Sometimes watching this eagle in action make u wish that u were one , flying and soaring with power on high altitude . And when u find a opportunity with ya sharp sense , u fly down to grab it ....

Finally the Much awaited Day

Hooray ...hooray , the sound of cheers is heard ( I guess i am cheering for myself , how miserable is that , o well * sigh* )

Finally i decided to renew my blogger's identity . Being rebirth to proclaim my right to fight for my untold justice , thoughts , ideas , frustration , temptation , tension , pressure, love , boredom , happiness, sadness ...and a whole lot of untold emotions.

i just hope i dun suffer from writer's block along the way , Ah that would be a disaster in waiting .
My FIRST day what do i write . Absolutely NOTHING !!! for now , this blog is under major construction

so if anyone is reading this site , move on fast , coz i just might spread my boredom illness to you

lililili.......XXX